dancin with fags
went out dancin last nite with chris at his fave thursday nite gay haunt. i wasn't really in the mood,, besides goin to a gay bar always gets me down becos you see all of these hot guys, an' none of them wants to fuck you. bah.
anyway, chris bribed me into goin by offerin to buy me all my drinks. he said he was meetin up with this guy for the first time, an' he wanted to have a backup escape plan (me) in case he doesn't like him. i waslike, w/e.
so i went,, chris picked me up in his brand new red mini-cooper, which i totally fell in love with. i told him that i'd be willin to be his escape plan forever if he bought me one of those babies. he waslike, "you wish!"
when we got to the club, it was already packed with gorgeous guys. mmost of them looked like freshmen students. i found out that it was some kind of gay frosh week nite or somethin. chris's date turned out to be fuckin hot. so he ditched me after buyin me two drinks so that he could go home an' fuck mr. cutie's brains out. i yelled at him "i love to hate you, bitch!" as he was walkin away. he yelled back, "hate to luv ya, sweetie!"
i stayed for a little while becos the dj started playin really good music. like, they played a really cool remix of janet's "all nite (don't stop)". i was right in the middle of the dancefloor dancin wit the boys. this one boy dancin in front of me told me he liked the way i danced an' shook my ass an' that i reminded him of ciara. that totally put me in agood mood.
when someone started passin x i was like, "hey, pass that dutch, yo!" it was the first time i'd had x in like forever. b4 you know it, i was suckin faces with this really hot gay guy who's the best kisser i've ever locked lips with. there isn't a spot in my mouth that his tongue didn't xplore. i was totally turned on! i was sooo ready to drag him outta there an fyck him in the parkin lot. then reality kicked in. i was like, "fuck!" i jokinly asked him if he felt anythin down there, like, have an rerction or somethin, an he was like shakin his head an smilin. i said, "that's cool/ just checkin to make sure...' an then i excused myself to the washroom, an made my way out an went home.
You have a serious button on male homosexuality. You mention homosexuals frequently and derisively, and sometimes (via an invented third-party) in your fantasies.
If you want to be a gay man, just embrace it. It's 2005, and it's OK to come out of the closet.
Unless you plan on going tranny, though, you should stop pretending to be female. It's unhealthy.
